Whats the point of learning something when you simply have no talent for it? ): piano today was a disaster, i nearly broke down and scared my teacher to bits. i'm so annoyed at myself. i know what its supposed to sound like, i know what i should play, but i just cant play and portray it through my fingers. it's the same thing with dance. sometimes i feel like im losing it entirely, my brain would just switch off and i can't remember a single thing.

through out this whole week, my brain has slid in and out of focus, many times. like i'd suddenly feel dizzy and lose track of all my thoughts. and this week has been terrible D: i got so annoyed at so many things, and i had to tell myself to cool down several times to prevent myself from screaming at some people. i dunno whats wrong with me ): things just keep slipping through my fingers, like water, something that i can't grasp at all.

maybe it's has just been a bad week. maybe things will turn out better. i've never felt this emo for a long long time. haish.

Bobbed; at9:08 PM.