Saturday, July 5, 2008



low after the high.


yesterday was such an exciting day. it was my birthday! while i waited apprehensively for the threat that jianying and daniel have been imposing since the beginning of the week, i received many wellwishes, greetings and presents. thank y'all, really. can't say that enough. haha and i didnt get dunked/waterbombed/dunged/dragged into RI pool. yes, i got bullshitted again.


but the excitement seemed to have taken a toll on me >< yesterday, during dinner with cheryl, i started feeling giddy and nauseous. took me quite a bit to collect my thoughts and talk. on the way home, my head was hurting like crazyyyy and my vision was blurred. by 11, i was so tired i nearly collapsed. replied a few messages, and before 12, i konked out.


woke up at 11 today, still feeling tired. at about 1, i started feeling giddy again, and i couldnt really process any thoughts. i dunno if i'm too tired, or its something else. :\ my body feels like its sick, and it needs a rest, but then again, it isn't sick, nor does it need a rest. during piano, i was half dying trying to remember everything mr ng said. when we started on a new piece, my head was seriously throbbing, and my eyes kept wanting to close. D:


i hate unknown sicknesses. blah. if you knew what it is, you'd probably be able to do something about it, or whine about it. but when you have no inkling what it is, you're just hurting. and another thing i really cant stand, is my stomach being upset. there's this deep soft pain that keeps echoing around my stomach, and i just cant get rid of it. arghhhhhhhhhhhhh~


and then there are other frustrating things going on, that in the midst of the birthday celebrations, fade away but return even stronger today.

i feel extremely grumpy. and snappish. must be the headache. my ma just grumbled that i never study. its a sad thing, cause i really dont. i must get my act together soon, or i think i'd have to retain ): and then there's the added stress of !@#$%^&*( PW. i hate pw. >:


i guess i really just need to be able to... let go. stop hoping so much, and let matters go like they are supposed to. sigh, right now i just feel like curling up in bed, cuddle my pillows and pray that things would be right for once.